something that keeps me alive

in life, you need something to make you feel alive and passionate about. and finally, i found mine.

people who knows me well sure will know that i’ve always liked to collect cute stationeries, notebook or journal. and last year i finally started a hobby that has something to do with them, it is scrapbooking or sometimes people call it collage journal/vintage journal/creative journal/aesthetic jornal. lol so many. also since i also love to watch ASMR scrapbooking on tiktok and youtube, i get inspired by them to make my own videos.

i make videos and post them everywhere; tiktok, instagram, and youtube. and i’m surprised that there are people who loves to watch my content in those platforms. i’m so happy that now i have something that keeps me happy and helps me relax for a while. it also helps me with my concentration because when i journal i’m so focused on and invested in doing it.

although there are several ugly comments about what i do, but i chose to focus on the good comments only. i also found some new friends and journaling community which are so lovely. so yeah, more positivity than negativity. when i read good comments it makes me want to make more content for them to enjoy.

i started this new hobby by collecting the supplies little by little, i got them from various shops such as shopee indonesia and international shops like paperwrld and lblyxir which i compile to my linktree. soo yeah that’s what i want to share this time. if you want and have time, you can come by to my youtube channel! xx

p.s: the shop links are affiliated (i will get a commission if you make a purchase but it will not affect your price) 🙂

my quick thoughts on norwegian wood

after a few months of having reader’s block, finally i finished reading murakami’s norwegian wood. this is my first time reading his novel, before, i have only read what i talk about when i talk about running years ago and i think i liked it. now i will give my quick thoughts after reading norwegian wood. i’ve been wanting to read this novel for a long time since everyone seems to like it. i’ve watched the movie years ago but dont really remember what’s going on with the story lol.

surprisingly, i need a few months to finish it, i started on october 2019 and finished on june 2020. wow. it is not because the novel is bad, no, it’s not bad. i had reader’s block on january and was kinda busy with my thesis, so there’s that. but i think this novel is a little bit boring.. yeah.. when i got in the middle of the novel, when watanabe visited naoko in kyoto, i got really bored and just dont want to try to read anymore. but at the end of last month, i tried it again, and i think it gets more interesting in the end.

overall, i like how murakami describe the details–bizarre details of each characters. i love how the characters really have personality and secrets. i like the story even though it is slow but its beautiful. it’s about life and death, in what way how we choose to live or die. there are some parts that are disturbing to me (about reiko-san) but as i said, i like how the characters have their own story about their pain and love.

so this is my quick review, i like this novel but not my favorite since little boring. however, i still want to read other murakami’s novel and short stories in the future. if you happen to read this blog post, write your thoughts on norwegian wood in the comment! bye.

i am older.

today i turned 25. it is kinda scary but i feel grateful. i always wished if i could be peter pan and stay as a child or go back to when i was fifteen years old and live a happy life forever, however reality is not like that.

when i look back to my life in the past 24 years, i realize that everything is temporary; people, some things that i cherish so much, tears of joy, sadness, depression, love and even heartbreak. it is true that memories live forever in my head but what can i do with the memories? and what about bad memories?

people and things come and go. and change. they only come to our lives for a while. thinking that everything will stay the same is very naive (i always do that). of course i’ve experienced the loss. losing people who i thought would not leave me; a member of family, friends, even strangers that I don’t really know.

and i realize that i can’t depend on something, i must depend on myself. and i am the one who decides my happiness. today in my birthday, i promise to myself that i won’t depend my happiness on someone else, and i want to be more mature in making decisions. i want to be healthier physically and mentally and find my peace. that’s my purpose.

How I spend my quarantine days during the pandemic

Before I start, I know it’s been a very long time since my last post (about 4 years?) many things happened in my life that’s why I’d like to make a small update about my recent life, anyways. as we all spend most of our time by staying at home for a few months because of COVID-19, in this post I’m going to list the things that I do at home during this pandemic. The first thing that comes to my mind now is writing a new blog post lol. someday I woke up feeling bored and start thinking about restoring my WordPress account and make a new blog post, so here it is! finally a new content for my blog.

Mostly I stay on the bed I spend my time learning Japanese. FYI, I’ve been interested in Japanese for years but haven’t had a chance to learn it. I started learning Japanese seriously at the beginning of Ramadan. I was planning to learn Korean and Spanish altogether but I decided to go with Japanese first. well, I learn it at home by myself so my progress is not really significant each day. but, thanks to my effort now I can at least read hiragana and katakana and a few kanjis –although I still can’t write kanjis lol. I purchased two books for basic Japanese called Marugoto and they help so much in practicing to write the words, and I’ve been using Duolingo as well which helps me a lot in structuring a sentence.

Enough with the Japanese thing, during this pandemic, I decided to buy some flower seeds (sunflower, dianthus, strawflower, and succulents) and vegetables (mustard greens). its been about more or less 9 days since I planted them. some of them have begun to grow especially the mustard greens. but I’m skeptical about the sunflower seed since I might planted them in a wrong way lol. but I just have to wait and see how it goes.

Other than that, I also try to get myself back at sketching. I remember that I was so into drawing years ago but so less practice and I’m not gifted at all. my drawing is so bad and I don’t think I have progressed at all. that is why I decided to practice sketching once more. thankfully I still have the blank sketchbook that I bought three years ago. haha! I hope it will work out this time.

Actually most of the time I spend my days playing mobile games such as Hay day (always my favorite), Mystic Messenger and Mr love: dream date and sometimes the sims 4 on my pc. I really want to play Animal crossing since people seem to like it so much but unfortunately, I have no Nintendo. I also watch some episodes of Criminal Minds and finished Bungo Stray Dogs and Tokyo Ghoul: re. and sometimes I play with my niece and nephew to get through my days. that’s pretty much what I do during staying at home though.

However, the most important thing that I do nowadays is looking for a job. FYI, I just graduated last month and I’m supposed to get a real job now. working as a freelancer is kinda suck and unstable so I hope this year I will finally get the real job that I would enjoy doing it. this pandemic kinda slows my life down (well my life is already slow anyway) but I won’t complain much since everyone’s lives have also impacted by it. I just hope this pandemic will end soon and we can get back to our normal life. I also pray for all the medical workers that work their as** off in the front-line for us. so stay safe, healthy, and stay at home everyone! I hope you enjoy reading this small post from me.

 

Pride & prejudice Vintage Classic Edition

Hi!! Before i post about Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice, i will let you know that i’ve just moved to wordpress!! 😀 guess why? Yeah because i want to try something new and, you know i’m kinda tired with blogger lol *no offense*. I hope with this new wordpress, i can post more and better / i always want to increase my blogging capability you know pls help me 😅

Okay, in this post i would like to share with you guys that i just got my Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice and guess what i have to admit i’m extremely in love with its cover!! Let’s take a look ⬇

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ITS SO LOVELY ISN’T IT? 😍 ikr. By the way that blue ribbon is the free bookmark i got from my local online bookstore 🙂
Well to be honest, anyway i haven’t read this story. I know /shame on me/ 😧 it’s ashame that i haven’t read this book meanwhile my major is English Literature 😐 It’s because i always read YA and Fantasy novels. But now i want to collect classic novels as much as my money can afford it lol well i’m a college student i don’t have much money to spend for novels. Okay this is all for my first post using wordpress :mrgreen:😁 what do you think about this novel’s cover? Let me know~

Ps. Excuse my standard English and wrong watermark on first picture 😷 (i just realize it)

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